Before you go straight into the chorus lead up, take a moment and sit right there kids.
Because Axis is about to tell you how she's been hella AWOL. So yeah, where to start. LAST TIME ON AXIS-BALL-Z.... I wish my life was that intensifying. The truth of the matter is once moving was complete and college start. Life started to go from sunshine, rainbows, and optimism to immediate landslide assisted by a giant boot of reality. So really getting into the gist of what happened. Basically everything happened, all at once in fact. Start from the top I suppose. For those who are still unaware I had a death in the family heading into the new school year. Although it had been some time since the passing of said family I took it rather strong to heart. As the member in question had pushed me to get where I was and had accomplished at the time. They had encouraged me to take steps forward, move out, get back to school, and do something with my time. So here I was doing just that but too late to have it acknowledged by the person that helped to make it happen. Basically for the first couple months I was a really sad little girl. Fast forward a couple months later, things are good, hell things are great. I'm prepping for first convention table, working local art events, getting through an animation degree with little problems, and in a what I thought healthy relationships with new friends and a new partner to call my own. The sunshine was great and I was making a change for the better. Progressing farther not just as a person but as an artist. Everything was exactly how I wanted it for years and then... BOOM. Like a canon was shot and unleashed with it the war. Little more forward. One love triangle accidentally entered, two college courses failed, three disappointed family members from second college drop out, and one stressed and depressed little Axis. Everything I had worked for suddenly felt like it was slipping away. With no signs of getting better. Though the convention was a success. Not too long after things just started to storm out of control and before I knew it I was panicking about everything. Rarely nights I slept properly or without tears at the fear that I was going to lose everything I had worked so hard to achieve this year. Why, just why. Though I did my best to get through it and push through it. There were just many days I couldn't help but think. This is it, Im gonna lose it all. Its all over. I failed, again, why. This mentality carried well into the next convention. Though I had friends doing their best to keep me motivated and to some extent happy. It was a hard time. July I proceeded to attend Con Bravo in Hamilton, Ontario and lone behold my bad luck only continued. My phone getting stolen on the Saturday morning and thus the five year curse of something bad happening every year continued. Between all this and side job working me full time hours on a part time job description. It became real easy to get lost in the void that was my life taking a slow dive into unnecessary hell. More recently I've had two major incidents that have kept me pretty distant from the things I love. My grandfather passing away, who I was never fortunate enough to meet properly. By the time I was remotely introduced he was already too sick from illness for it to be worth getting to know him on a personal level. I'm gonna miss him not necessarily because of anything I remember of him but because if anything he was family. There was also the case of my mother ending up in the hospital with some major injuries which now has her harnessed to several healing devices. I was in and out of the hospital a few times for her sake. So naturally during that time I was uneasy and constantly at odds with my worry for her health. Through all this its thanks to an awesome community, wonderful friends, and a supporting new boyfriend of six months that I've managed to regain myself from these events as well as the little things in between. It's their compassion and encouragement that led me to pick myself up and get back to the things I love the most. Like all of you and everything I do here. Its thanks to them and all of you that I've worked towards better things since all these bad things in my life. I've been Affiliated on Twitch, been able to go back to being a commission artist, been able to start up my Youtube Channel, as well as go to convention to meet with the people that make all this possible. With all this good coming my way in the last month or two. I want to continue this streak and keep getting better. Let's move forward from here as a community and see what other good things come in the next year! Thank you everyone for tuning in and for all your understanding. Cuddles of Greatness to you all ♥ - Axis
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Axis M. Genesis
A 25 year old nerd from the great white north fantasizing in digital artistry, animation, gaming, as well as a large variety of other ventures. Also a part time closeted Super Villain in Training. Social Spots
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